My summer has whisked by. My cute little missionary came home from his LDS mission from England and things have settled down somewhat. But, I have a feeling I'm about ready to take another plunge into a busy life. My eldest daughter is seriously dating a young man and my eldest son has asked for the hand of his girlfriend from her father. They are in Florida right now at the Disneyland resort where he will propose with the help of some staff members.
How do I feel about this? I don't know. I'm not happy and I'm not sad. His girlfriend is a gem and so good for him. But, I feel so. . .weird. I feel like he's not old enough and yet he is twenty three. I feel like he doesn't have enough money yet he has no debt, has a small savings and paid cash for her ring. I feel like he still needs us yet he goes off and handles all of his own issues and makes all of his own decisions most of the time without our ever knowing anything about it until after its done. Thank heavens. I'm totally excited about his moving on with his life and moving out. So, what's wrong? I don't know. Maybe I feel the loss of an era. My family is changing so fast. Missions and marriages are pretty life changing. Things will never be the same. And yet, there's more to it. Anyone have any thoughts?
February 12, 2011
As our house burned, I could actually hear our memories
Bittersweet things are the hardest sometimes. I've been thinking that I can't wait for my little girl to grow up, yet I'm so scared of it too. Good luck with everything!
ReplyDeleteI think you're right about it being a more loss of an era. Once your children are married, their childhood is Officially over. I know going on a mission is big and going to college is big, but they can still be "YOURS" even if they are away. Once they marry, they are someone elses all of the sudden.
ReplyDeleteSo hard to give what you've create away to someone else to mold.
Sorry that sounds depressing...but I guess it's the truth.
Don't worry. You can always come to the Cube and cry on our shoulders.
Love ya.
I wonder if this is why Mom and Dad kept having kids, hmmmm...
ReplyDeleteResist the urge (per James' comment) :-) A while back I was lamenting the fact I didn't have anymore babies, and an older lady I know said, "Oh, but you'll love your kids as teenagers. They are so much fun. And then when you get grandkids it's even better." Anyhow, she struck me as someone who embraced each new stage. So, my goal in life is to feel sentimental for a minute, and then look forward to the new adventure.
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